Thursday, June 11, 2009

4-1-05

to: you
from: me
subject: fuck this/you/my past/your future


took a cold shower to get the feeling of you off my skin
"out of sight, out of mind"
i always looked at you as pathetic
hold the magnifying glass as high as the drugs in your veins
dont stare at the sun forever
found you on the bathroom floor
another attempt at the afterlife
failure's not flattering
counted your excuses like the slashes on your skin
rising to the top 
blood cell(mates)
"all your cheap words about hearts and accidents"
got the keys to your insecurities
(un)locked and loaded
like your medicine cabinet, i'm better off without you
you showed me what love isn't supposed to be
thank you for being so awful

the truth is I never missed you.  
i never even loved you

Friday, June 5, 2009

cloudy

shine your eyes down my spine
make me believe in tomorrow
got a bad case of the blues 
drug my conscience through muddy waters
forecasted another sleepless night
"head stopper pill popper"
addicted to the empty bed and cloudy head
homesick homewrecker
anti (no)bodies
starting everyday on the wrong side of the bed
and wrong side of the country

xo