posted an obituary in the classifieds

im a thunderstorm

drowned my sorrows in perscriptions

the doctors cant take away the way you feel in my chest

sunburnt our hearts to our sleeves

(re)possessed my smile

got lost in loneliness 

midnight eyelashes

never slept as well as i did next to you

to a turn on an empty highway

drove into the horizon

i got (get) lost trying to find me

ending up back at you

at the start

full moon kisses on front porches

fireflies as our witness

iloveyou

 

lost in space(mountain)

havent slept in days

got a case permanent case of the blues

told me id forget my head if it wasnt attached

sometimes that doesnt seem so bad

looking for some p.i.e.c.e. and q.u.i.e.t. in all the wrong pieces 

see: commitment versus committed 

electrical wiring all gone wrong

crossed (my heart) all the wires in my head

never remember which color to cut

defUSE me

id keep myself hostage

just to see you get out alive

snow globe my home to my head

ive got nothing but honest left behind the baggage i carry under my eyes.  meet me halfway to a new country with the same problems.  
obsessed with the way that light will hit your eyes. it's been too long since i felt the way your smile makes my blood pressure rise.  marked a spot for your body in my arms. put me under a magnifying glass.  watch my love burn.

white wedding day vows.  till death do us part(y)

goodnight beautiful.

ego mania(c)

keyboard confessional

fee(l)d my words from my chest to your screen

making my finger(s) tip(sy) electric

plug my head into the s(r)ocket

hot air balloons for lungs

fill me up with hot air and watch me go

two way mirrors versus two way streets

i'm a dead end

a never was

we'll clean the slate

just to make it dirty again

the dirt on the top of the coffin

spoiled and rotten heart

bugs eat decay

milligrams eat creativity

i'm a loose canon

shot me to the pharmacy

the doctor wrote me a new chance at life

they filled me up with a conscience

left me without a refill

give me withdraws of you 

i'll shoot you deep inside my veins

i'm a smile without a chance. a night light without a dream. a warning for your heart.  doomed from the start. 

cant quite keep you out of my mind. maybe i don't want to

took a chance on a red eye

flying the friendly skylines

stuck in waiting rooms

but i'm waiting on no one but you

purgatory smiles

i'll wear you around my eyes (can't forget the way you look in the morning)

my odds versus the chance this is the real

gamble with your heART

sentiMENTAL boys with hearts too big for their heads.

icantwaittoseeyou

i've got dirty thoughts to pour down the inside of your ear

Redirect my head to the sunset.  Connect the dots making (your) smile from all the stars.  Tie the knots in my stomach to match the one on your finger (wedding day promises).  This is the type of night that nothing seems to feel right except for your breath on my forehead.  I'd give anything to feel your pulse next to mine.

"Go to sleep baby boy" she whispered into the glowing earpiece.  I'm waiting for the day to share a sunrise with your heart.  Don't worry about me too much.  These circles around my eyes are just badges of honor.  Evidence of the time I've spent thinking of you (sentiMENTAL).  Through this wish into the sea.  Get it lost in the currents.  I'll always find my way back to your smile.

in the dark of night

i sleep better with a warm body next to me instead of a (my) cold heart.  she's got enough perfections to cover up my flaws.

i wouldn't want this to be about anyone else other than YOU

can't get enough of the way you feel

take your place behind my eyelids. dug a grave so i can sleep for days with you in my dreams.  we're more alive apart than we ever were. this shouldn't be so easy. i've got hot spots in my eyes and sparks in my fingertips.  swallow the moon.  digest the skyline. all we've got is time(zones) on our hands.

i'm still coming for your heart (1,249 miles)

21409

love.

andybear

directions to life are on the side of every pill bottle.

getting lost inside a thought.  brain cell(phone) conversations.  call me back or call me out.  i'm coming for your heart.  i won't stop till its all mine.  the house is all in. BETter sorry than apologetic.  we're the mixtape for the mallrats.  don't count me out just yet.

took a trip on a jet plane

palm trees and candy canes

you had me from the start

arrow straight to the heart

iloveyou

i took a pill and found myself in the want ads

broke the skyline

just to find your time zone

made you smile

in the reflection of a flash

called border(line) patrol

just to make it back in time to pretend to sleep next to you

i've got a big heart

an even bigger ego

the world's spinning

and i'm swooning

took a dip in the big dipper. washed the zolpidem from behind my eyes.  i'm coming to make your heart swell. (21409)

i won't...

let you love me.

but i can teach you how to hate me.

High fives from heaven to hell

Kiss a little bit harder.  Love a little bit longer. I can hear my heartbeat in my ears.  It's like thunder in between the lightning behind my eyes.  This is more than high blood pressure, it's a high rise and a chance to jump for a fresh start.

Adorn my soul with scars.  I've got nothing else to prove.

Lip service promises.  We've got nothing but the time behind our backs.  Accept me for the mess that you've helped undo.  I miss the way y(our) eyes meet at midnight.  We wished on starts and shot down the moon for all the world to see.

I can't speak about anything other than truth from behind every lie I've ever told.

Insomni-maniac(s)

Wouldn't know what to do with a sundial.  Put it in reverse.  A metronome for your heart beat.  Put me to sleep or put me out of my misery.  Counting sheep to forget the way you whispered my name.  In the dark is where we're famous.  I'm afraid I'll stay this broken forever.  Super glue your promises to my (wish) bones.  A classicaly trained con-artist.  Steal your heart in the winter.  Gift wrapped in summer time sunsets.  Learning more than I forget about us (me).

i'm sorry i'm just a broken down heart in the form of a broken down boy.

Always...

Flirt with disaster.

Always.

meet me in your darkest hour. i'll be lighting the way back to us.

I've got my drug of choice.  Lovers and liars.  Mix well before inhaling.  Right into the veins and right into the sunset.  I've got bigger choices to make than choosing between my conscience and the racing blood cells in my chest.  Light my eyelashes on fire with the last puff of your cigarette.  You've got to understand what it feels like to be lost in the light of day to really get the way it feels here right now.  Looking forward to the return of hopelessness.  I've got the pride to say no to the pills and face this head on (collision).  All points bulletin for happiness.  Bottle it and sell to the homeless and unappreciated.  My soul for your collateral.  Desperate times call for indecent measures.  Wear a noose to match the circles under my eyes.

I'd fall asleep anywhere to wake up next to you sometime.

This isnt about the not allowing someone to love you

this is all about not allowing yourself to be loved by someone.

this is me. ripe and new.

she had two way mirror eyes.  in one ear and out the other. a needle t(p)icking through my veins.  is this love or is this misery? the middle's not that far off.  feeling like a deserted island.  send my loneliness in a bottle.  postmarked from my head to my ribs.

this isn't just a growing pain.

this is growing up.

welcome home dream(er)s

out with the old and in with the new

big changes in the life and times of a disaster.

working on my personality, and not my lack thereof

there are things that you've never seen that are headed towards the light

on the wings of moths, headed towards a sure fire(fly) death.

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