Saturday, January 31, 2009

posted an obituary in the classifieds

im a thunderstorm
drowned my sorrows in perscriptions
the doctors cant take away the way you feel in my chest
sunburnt our hearts to our sleeves
(re)possessed my smile
got lost in loneliness 
midnight eyelashes
never slept as well as i did next to you
to a turn on an empty highway
drove into the horizon
i got (get) lost trying to find me
ending up back at you
at the start
full moon kisses on front porches
fireflies as our witness

Thursday, January 29, 2009

lost in space(mountain)

havent slept in days
got a case permanent case of the blues
told me id forget my head if it wasnt attached
sometimes that doesnt seem so bad
looking for some p.i.e.c.e. and q.u.i.e.t. in all the wrong pieces 
see: commitment versus committed 
electrical wiring all gone wrong
crossed (my heart) all the wires in my head
never remember which color to cut
defUSE me
id keep myself hostage
just to see you get out alive

Monday, January 26, 2009

snow globe my home to my head

ive got nothing but honest left behind the baggage i carry under my eyes.  meet me halfway to a new country with the same problems.  
obsessed with the way that light will hit your eyes. it's been too long since i felt the way your smile makes my blood pressure rise.  marked a spot for your body in my arms. put me under a magnifying glass.  watch my love burn.

white wedding day vows.  till death do us part(y)

goodnight beautiful.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

ego mania(c)

keyboard confessional
fee(l)d my words from my chest to your screen
making my finger(s) tip(sy) electric
plug my head into the s(r)ocket
hot air balloons for lungs
fill me up with hot air and watch me go
two way mirrors versus two way streets
i'm a dead end
a never was
we'll clean the slate
just to make it dirty again
the dirt on the top of the coffin
spoiled and rotten heart
bugs eat decay
milligrams eat creativity
i'm a loose canon
shot me to the pharmacy
the doctor wrote me a new chance at life
they filled me up with a conscience
left me without a refill
give me withdraws of you 
i'll shoot you deep inside my veins

i'm a smile without a chance. a night light without a dream. a warning for your heart.  doomed from the start. 

Thursday, January 22, 2009

cant quite keep you out of my mind. maybe i don't want to

took a chance on a red eye
flying the friendly skylines
stuck in waiting rooms
but i'm waiting on no one but you
purgatory smiles
i'll wear you around my eyes (can't forget the way you look in the morning)

my odds versus the chance this is the real
gamble with your heART
sentiMENTAL boys with hearts too big for their heads.


Wednesday, January 21, 2009

i've got dirty thoughts to pour down the inside of your ear

Redirect my head to the sunset.  Connect the dots making (your) smile from all the stars.  Tie the knots in my stomach to match the one on your finger (wedding day promises).  This is the type of night that nothing seems to feel right except for your breath on my forehead.  I'd give anything to feel your pulse next to mine.

"Go to sleep baby boy" she whispered into the glowing earpiece.  I'm waiting for the day to share a sunrise with your heart.  Don't worry about me too much.  These circles around my eyes are just badges of honor.  Evidence of the time I've spent thinking of you (sentiMENTAL).  Through this wish into the sea.  Get it lost in the currents.  I'll always find my way back to your smile.

Monday, January 19, 2009

in the dark of night

i sleep better with a warm body next to me instead of a (my) cold heart.  she's got enough perfections to cover up my flaws.

i wouldn't want this to be about anyone else other than YOU

Saturday, January 17, 2009

can't get enough of the way you feel

take your place behind my eyelids. dug a grave so i can sleep for days with you in my dreams.  we're more alive apart than we ever were. this shouldn't be so easy. i've got hot spots in my eyes and sparks in my fingertips.  swallow the moon.  digest the skyline. all we've got is time(zones) on our hands.

i'm still coming for your heart (1,249 miles)


Friday, January 16, 2009

directions to life are on the side of every pill bottle.

getting lost inside a thought.  brain cell(phone) conversations.  call me back or call me out.  i'm coming for your heart.  i won't stop till its all mine.  the house is all in. BETter sorry than apologetic.  we're the mixtape for the mallrats.  don't count me out just yet.

took a trip on a jet plane
palm trees and candy canes
you had me from the start
arrow straight to the heart


Thursday, January 15, 2009

i took a pill and found myself in the want ads

broke the skyline
just to find your time zone
made you smile
in the reflection of a flash
called border(line) patrol
just to make it back in time to pretend to sleep next to you
i've got a big heart
an even bigger ego
the world's spinning
and i'm swooning

took a dip in the big dipper. washed the zolpidem from behind my eyes.  i'm coming to make your heart swell. (21409)

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

i won't...

let you love me.

but i can teach you how to hate me.

High fives from heaven to hell

Kiss a little bit harder.  Love a little bit longer. I can hear my heartbeat in my ears.  It's like thunder in between the lightning behind my eyes.  This is more than high blood pressure, it's a high rise and a chance to jump for a fresh start.

Adorn my soul with scars.  I've got nothing else to prove.

Lip service promises.  We've got nothing but the time behind our backs.  Accept me for the mess that you've helped undo.  I miss the way y(our) eyes meet at midnight.  We wished on starts and shot down the moon for all the world to see.

I can't speak about anything other than truth from behind every lie I've ever told.

Sunday, January 11, 2009


Wouldn't know what to do with a sundial.  Put it in reverse.  A metronome for your heart beat.  Put me to sleep or put me out of my misery.  Counting sheep to forget the way you whispered my name.  In the dark is where we're famous.  I'm afraid I'll stay this broken forever.  Super glue your promises to my (wish) bones.  A classicaly trained con-artist.  Steal your heart in the winter.  Gift wrapped in summer time sunsets.  Learning more than I forget about us (me).
i'm sorry i'm just a broken down heart in the form of a broken down boy.

Saturday, January 10, 2009


Flirt with disaster.


Friday, January 9, 2009

meet me in your darkest hour. i'll be lighting the way back to us.

I've got my drug of choice.  Lovers and liars.  Mix well before inhaling.  Right into the veins and right into the sunset.  I've got bigger choices to make than choosing between my conscience and the racing blood cells in my chest.  Light my eyelashes on fire with the last puff of your cigarette.  You've got to understand what it feels like to be lost in the light of day to really get the way it feels here right now.  Looking forward to the return of hopelessness.  I've got the pride to say no to the pills and face this head on (collision).  All points bulletin for happiness.  Bottle it and sell to the homeless and unappreciated.  My soul for your collateral.  Desperate times call for indecent measures.  Wear a noose to match the circles under my eyes.

I'd fall asleep anywhere to wake up next to you sometime.

This isnt about the not allowing someone to love you
this is all about not allowing yourself to be loved by someone.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

this is me. ripe and new.

she had two way mirror eyes.  in one ear and out the other. a needle t(p)icking through my veins.  is this love or is this misery? the middle's not that far off.  feeling like a deserted island.  send my loneliness in a bottle.  postmarked from my head to my ribs.

this isn't just a growing pain.
this is growing up.
welcome home dream(er)s

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

out with the old and in with the new

big changes in the life and times of a disaster.
working on my personality, and not my lack thereof
there are things that you've never seen that are headed towards the light
on the wings of moths, headed towards a sure fire(fly) death.
(for all the updates on the relaunch of me and you)
(bread crumb trails from old to new)